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Who Is David Foster Wallace & Who Killed Him and How?
The Slow Murder of His Great Being?
By 2007 he had been on the same medication, Nardil, for 20 years. He believed the pills were starting to have bad side-effects; he was finding it hard to eat, but also he believed that the drug might be getting in the way of his writing. On the advice of a doctor, he stopped taking Nardil. He quickly became very unstable. "He was scared out of his mind," Green recalls. "There was a healthy person in there who wanted to come off the meds. There was a perfectionist who wanted to be a good husband. And there was a sick person that wanted to see how much he could rock the boat." The Guardian
The Lost Years and Last Days of David Foster Wallace
He was the greatest writer of his generation — and also its most tormented. In the wake of his tragic suicide, his friends and family reveal the lifelong struggle of a beautiful mind - Rolling Stone
I am not condoning this author’s books nor dissing them; your consumption of his material, his books full of very depressing pressings like suicide stories, is up to you to choose or not to choose.
I am sharing him because I perceive his interviews very interesting and brilliant. And, his long death through what seems, in my opinion, to be a long standing poisoning through “better living through chemistry”. I am not a doctor and don’t play one on TV, my opinion of seeming certainty only.
What tragedy people get lured and take the bait of the medikill system.
Perhaps more something diabolical involved, we may never know, whether there was intentional poisoning from his “doctors” to con-troll such a brilliant mind. I only say this because I KNOW this is what the medikill deth kuhlt system has done.
Gee, Nardil side effects are:
These side effects to watch out for include: light-headedness agitation or unwanted changes in behavior rapid weight gain changes in heart rate or chest pain severe or sudden headaches stiffness in your neck vomiting sweating sensitivity to light or vision problems. - The “REcovery” Site
Operative words are:
Nardil side effects: “unwanted changes in behavior”
Also, David played football quite young as a young teen. He was big, very tall, very athletic in an unexpected way, apparently. We know about concussions. Was the where the downturn started:
“people started hitting each other a lot harder”,
David Wallace quoted in Rolling Stone
David was a big-built kid; he played football — quarterback — until he was 12 or 13, and would always speak like an athlete, the disappearing G’s, “wudn’t,” “dudn’t” and “idn’t” and “sumpin’.” “The big thing I was when I was little was a really serious jock,” Wallace told me. “I mean, I had no artistic ambition. I played citywide football. And I was really good. Then I got to junior high, and there were two guys in the city who were better quarterbacks than me. And people started hitting each other a lot harder, and I discovered that I didn’t really love to hit people. That was a huge disappointment. - Rolling Stone
Then, Rolling Stone article quotes this from David:
Plus it was the Seventies — Pink Floyd, bongs. “I started to smoke a lot of pot when I was 15.” - Rolling Stone
We know head damage damages the brain, damages players emotional capacities. I know someone personally whose 40 some year old son did himself in because he just couldn’t handle his concussions caused mental illness from his high school football days. Tragic.
Perhaps David started self-medicating, as they say, from the distress from his footballing brain damage where in the players in his games “started hitting each other a lot harder”.
So, possible football related brain damage inducing mental illness aggravated by drug use? Young people are led down this cookie-cutter path of destruction without any protection from said cookie-cutter trail of tears.
David’s parents are touted as brilliant intelluals, “professors” - professing what? - so much that they for-played reading Ulysses to each other in bed, David is quoted saying he overheard them when he was growing up reading allowed to each other in their bed chamber.
How book-smart is touted as laudable yet fails utterly in the land of practicality for child-rearing. Who was paying attension to their children’s needs, children’s suffering? Why do children reach for drugs to cope? No one is their listening? No one is their asking much needed questions? No one is their over-seeing who else is influencing them? We just have sex, conceive a child and wing it, avoid them, basically, letting the wolves (wolves are much nicer) of wall-street and their puppeteers who own our entire “education” - indoctrination - mynd control NATION?!
Be wary of your “chemistry” dolled out so happily by mk ultra’d med-eeks who profits from sickness and feast on shackling the hurting taking advantage of the neediness, naivité and the long-groomed since birth through all media of the “serfs” of “civilizations” who come to the fast food mart of hijacked, twisted ill-usions begging for their souless-utions for their problems they might have gotten themselves into so they don’t have to get themselves out of it by taking the walk down memories lanes of pain to uproot the silented self, to listen to the thrawted agony trying to freely complete the healing process. Take inventory, take responsibility for what you ours and take ourselves into our own arms with the love we never had when we lost hope for our rescue after too long our fight giving up and abandoning ourselves - we, our final, betrayer.
I do love this video I’ve linked below. He is quite wonderfully articulate about “all the things” that are ever as relevant now as always. He’s shining brilliantly here!
Let me know in the comments below what you think and feel! Love to hear what you like about his perceptions and what you don’t like!
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ENJOY his brilliant, wise, exquisitely articulate sharing here so apropos to right as ever:
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